It is only when we truly know and understand that we have a limited time on earth and that we have no way of knowing when our time is up that we will begin to live each day to the fullest, as if it were the only one we had. (Elizabeth Kubler-Ross)
Few days ago :
1 message received
From : ————- (my high school teacher)
I touch the ‘read’ panel on my cell phone
“Your friend, Shin Min, just passed away this morning. The cause of death is still unknown, his body was taken already to Siloam Gleneagles Hospital. I’ll give you the further information as soon as I get the further news.”
At the moment, I forgot to take a breath. I was in deep shock. Shin min died? Oh no, this must be a joke. But the message was as clear as a crystal. As I read again the message, my mind flew back to my senior high school years. The silly Korean guy, who was my senior friend has just died?? But he’s just 25! He’s just played a facebook game last night!
As soon as I spread the news to my other old high school friends, another old friend told me that Shin min died of cardiac arrest (a dysfunction of respiratory organ). His colleague tried to wake him up but he was shocked because Shin min’s lip was blue and his body was cold. Yea, I remembered that he had asthma.
I’m wondering he must be had his asthma that night and didn’t get his oxygen can. What if someone could get his oxygen can? What if he slept earlier? What if someone knew earlier that he had his asthma’s attack? And another ‘what if’ questions bouncing in my head. Suddenly I questioned myself, “what if I died tonight? or tomorrow? Am I ready yet?” No, I’m not ready, I’m still young, I have dreams to catch, I want to get married and have kids, and bla bla bla. But can I avoid it if my time has come? It’s not even in my control. It’s not Shin min’s authority to let him live for one more day.
Life is not about us, not about me. Yes it is true that I’m in charge of my life, but i feel like my life is not mine. Some time, some day, when the time is up, whether I like it or not, ready or not, I might have to stop breathing. All I could do now is live my life to the fullest, give thanks everyday of every breath I’m taking, pour my very best into everything I do. Because life is not measured by the breaths you take, but by its breathtaking moments (-Michael Vance).
Now, go ahead, think about the idea of life. Are you ready yet when your time has come?
“One day your life will flash before your eyes. Make sure its worth watching.”
p.s : all my condolences and gratitude goes to you, Shin Min. You have lived your unbelievable amazing life. You'll always be in my heart and your friends'. I'm so glad I've known you, you're really a nice person. May you rest in peace